Star Raiders and Space Invaders

Thanks for reminding me about how sad I am about Chuck T.T

Chuck and Sarah kissing on the beach, with us having absolutely no idea what’s coming next, and then suddenly, when you think everything is going to be resolved, it cuts to the title card, on the very last line of “Rivers and Roads.” There’s just something about that.

I don’t think I’m ever going to forget it. Just the way it fades to black and the title card slides in. I don’t know. It’s just gorgeous and heartbreaking and perfect and gut-wrenching all at the same time.

I’ve watched that whole last scene so many times now. And the thing is, I still have no idea what to think about it, and I don’t know if I ever will. Chuck has been a huge part of my life since the pilot aired. For five years of my life. And just… The way it ended… I don’t know. I absolutely loved it. But it was still a cliffhanger.

And, obviously, everything would most likely turn out okay. Sarah was slowly starting to remember things. She was clearly falling for Chuck again. But just, the whole cliffhanger-y nature of the scene just got to me. And the cut to the title card was beautiful, in a really weird way.

And there’s never going to be a new episode of Chuck again. And it’s honestly been making me feel really empty.

Okay, enough rambling, I’m really tired, and I really need to go to sleep.

Rivers ‘til I reach you.

It’s all left up for interpretation. It was all just so… I don’t know. Like the amount of story that’s still left could take up an entire next season, but that’s not going to happen, and I know it isn’t going to happen. And I’m just not good with the whole “up to interpretation” thing. And it’s not at all what I’m expected. It’s a surprising hook that I wasn’t expecting them to take. I was expecting an absolutely happy ending. But instead, it ended exactly how the pilot episode ended, but with the roles reversed.

I just don’t know what to feel about this, man. I really just don’t know.

I’ve watched this show for the last five years of my life. I’ve been there from the premiere of the pilot, all the way to the finale. And now it’s over. And I’m left with so much to ask.

I wasn’t prepared for the “up to interpretation” card. That really threw me for a loop. And now it’s over. It’s done. And I’m crying my eyes out and it really just… Isn’t what I expected. At all. And that’s a really good thing. I don’t think I’ve ever felt like this about a TV show before. I’m just… Wow. I just feel like there’s a hole in my chest. I don’t know what to feel about this.

I want to know what comes next so badly. I don’t want to make something up. I want to think that everything will turn out okay but I’ll never know. And it hurts, man.

I just need some time to think, I guess. I just really need some time to think.

And I also need to man the fuck up and stop crying this much over a TV show.

Then again, that’s five years of my life that’s now just over. Part of me feels like I should feel like this. Part of me feels like I shouldn’t. I don’t know. I just don’t know. I’m hardly ever this emotionally invested in TV shows.

But that ending was just… Wow.

I just need some time.

I just feel empty. Just really empty.

That was a beautiful ending. It was incredibly simple, and not at all what I was expecting, and leaves a lot open to interpretation. I don’t think I’ve ever been left with so much to think about, and with so much laying ahead of the story. But now it’s over. And that was it. And that ending was just… Wow.

I don’t know, man. All I know is that I just feel really weird, and I’m crying my eyes out right now, and I just don’t feel right. I don’t know. It’s nowhere near the ending I expected. It was an incredible ending, and it was really weird. Not at all in the regular Chuck fashion. And I don’t know how to feel about it. And I just feel empty.

It was beautifully simple, yet incredibly complex, and I just don’t know.

I either come into shows late and have to catch up, or I give up on them or move on after a while, or they get canceled, or they still haven’t ended yet.

But no, not with Chuck. I’ve been there from the very beginning. It’s been a huge part of my life, and one of my absolute favorite shows, for the last five years. And now, tonight, it will be over.

I really don’t know how I feel about that yet.

I’m really just feeling way too many things. This is weird for me. This is the end of a series. One of my favorite TV shows is going to end tonight. It’s the last episode. No matter how many times I say it, and no matter how many ways I say it, it just doesn’t feel right to me. Like… I don’t know. This is gonna be it, and it’s gonna be over, and then there’s never going to be a new episode, ever again.

I’ve loved every character of that show, every episode, every plot, every single story arc. It’s such a funny and charming show. And it’s been so close to cancellation so many times, and now it’s just gonna be over.

I mean, I was watching Zach Levi’s live Twitcast from right before and right after they filmed the very last scene of the series, and I was watching it live, and started to cry just watching that. I don’t know how I’m gonna feel tonight. I just don’t know. I’ve never really had to deal with this before. I’m not used to it at all. I’d be able to deal with it if I came into the show late, and had only been watching it for a few seasons, but I’ve been watching since day one. Chuck is a huge part of me now. It’s been on for five years. I spent my entire teenage years watching Chuck.

This just feels really weird. I’m starting to tear up just thinking about this. I don’t know how I’m gonna be tonight. It’s kind of like a huge part of my life is just getting up and leaving. I know, I shouldn’t be this attached to a TV show, but I just am.

Ugh. This is just too weird.

Chuck is the only show that I’ve seen every episode from its premiere until the end. I mean, yeah, I’ve seen every episode of tons of shows, but I tuned into the very first episode, when it was premiering, and now it’s ending. Next week is going to be the final episode. And I’ve seen every episode as it had premiered. It’s sort of starting to feel like a part of me is ending. This has never happened before. I’ve never stuck with a show like this until the end of the series. Every other show, I’ve either given up on, or it hasn’t ended yet. Almost every new episode for the last five years, I’ve been there to see as they’ve been on. I’ve only ever missed a few, and I’ve always watched them as soon as possible. This series will be over, one week and one hour from now. I don’t know how I feel. I just… I don’t know… This is really emotional in a weird way. Shit, I’ve been with Mass Effect since the very beginning, too. Is this how I’m going to feel when Mass Effect 3 comes out, and Shepard’s story ends? Man, I don’t know. Too many emotions, man. Too many emotions.

THAT ENDING. AND THAT PREVIEW. AND. OH MY GOD.

SOOO GOOD. And the best part was the FUCKING PREVIEW for next week! It was exactly how I like it: still enough stuff to get hyped about, yet NO FUCKING SPOILERS. Lately, they’ve been showing all the important stuff from the upcoming episodes, and it’s been PISSING ME OFF. It was a perfect preview this week, and an even better episode.

This episode is SO GOOD

Told ya.

I think it’s probably just a baby that she had adopted or had found and was taking care of or something. That could be just as important to her as her own child, you know. Just a thought!